Devotions For Women With a Crushed and Broken Spirit Caused by an Affair
Posted: Saturday, July 31, 2010
by Marsha Rozalski
http://www.godlywhispers.com
I remember feeling that my very soul had died. I guess what I was really feeling was a broken spirit. I know I felt like I had been shattered into pieces. I really felt that I couldn't go on. I was severely depressed and thoughts of suicide did enter into my mind. The pain that was inside of me was just too much for me to bear and I felt like giving up. Death, to me, seemed better than this never ending pain and agony.
I had a hole in my soul and it was a God shaped hole. That place inside of me that felt hopeless, devastated, hurt and alone, no one seemed able to touch. I am now glad that I turned to God and not something or someone else.
I know you don't know me, but I have NEVER smoked, drank or did drugs but after I found out about my husband's affair, I actually thought of trying out marijuana. The reason I thought about doing this was because I had heard somewhere, that if you smoke it, it makes you not care about anything. That is what I desperately wanted, to not care about anything. I even knew where I could get some, but to this day, I am very glad I never went that route.
I realized when I couldn't stop thinking about the small hand gun I own and how easy it would be do just pull the trigger and end it all; that I needed help from a professional. 1 month after I found out about my husband's affair, I went to my family doctor and told him everything. He wanted to admit me into the hospital, but my husband convinced him that he would watch me close while the medication took effect.
Now, antidepressants are not for everyone but they were for me. They really helped me and I was, again, able to function throughout the day. Now, antidepressants alone are not going to be the cure all. You also need to see a counselor on a regular basis. I would recommend, at least once a week for the first few months. You also need to keep God in your life. Having a close relationship with God is going to help you tremendously.
As you find healing in God, be sure you seek the help of the Holy Spirit for wisdom. I believe that there are times when someone is in such a state of depression, that they either want to die or just unable to function, that it's okay to use medication to become more emotionally stabilized. I have dealt with people that flat out refused medication because they believed, that by doing so, it meant they didn't have faith. I believe that if this medication helps one think more coherently and they no longer want to die, then they should be able to receive this help.
You, also, may be going through a lot of the same things that I went through in those early days. The Bible says that no one can bear a broken spirit. That it's impossible to bear and it's also impossible for us to mend our broken spirits alone. Only God can heal your broken spirit.
A broken spirit comes when your heart has been shattered and you feel like you're very soul has died; it affects your entire life. This usually causes your spirit to become depressed. The devastation of having your spirit broken is very real and knowing that no one can save you from it is very traumatic. This is why some choose death over life. They don't see any reason to go on. They feel broken beyond repair. But we as Christians know there is a reason to go on and we know that we aren't going to stay broken forever.
God can repair your broken spirit; He is your Master Healer. Don't look to your spouse to heal you, because they can't fix your heart. If you read God's Word, you'll see that God takes people that are wounded and broken and He restores them and uses them in great ways. As long as you have faith in Him you will be totally healed. That is one of God's promises. God promises to save those who have broken spirits and renew them. Hold the promise close to your heart and believe that God is healing you.
Please consider adding devotions to your daily routine. You will not regret doing so! Please visit http://www.godlywhispers.com for more great devotions just for the betrayed spouse.
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Top-level comments on this article: (1 total)Hello Marsha,
Do you have any control over adverts that come up next to your articles? I have sent a complaint to searchwarp, but don't hope for a helpful response.
Here in the Uk there are adverts for "available" women alongside your helpful articles for betrayed wives.
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